Nothing too major or thought provoking tonight. Just stressing about finals and struggling to turn everything over to God. I know perfect grades are not necessary, but I desire them so much because they’re a source of pride and vanity for me. I need to realize that I am blessed simply to be able to go to such a great college, and that as long as I am glorifying God and trying my best, the rest will fall into place.
I WANT THIS SO BADLY. Honestly, so badly that it sometimes hurts.
I tend to have a lot of boy drama in my life. I don’t know why, or what I can do about it, but it’s there. All the time.
Currently, there’s one boy I’ve been “talking to” for a little while now. He kissed me for the first time last night, and I’m not sure how I feel about it. He’s a Christian, so I’m happy about that and the potential impact we can have on each other’s lives. But I’m not sure if he’s the boy I should be with at this point in my life. He knows I’m a virgin and is totally okay with that, I fit in well with his friends (but he will never fit in with mine), he’s adorably dorky in the way I love, but there’s still something that doesn’t quite click. Is this God’s way of telling me not him? Or just not now?
” Matt and Julie married last week, and when the time came for the garter to be removed, Matt did something unexpected. As Julie sat in her chair, Matt approached her with a water basin and a towel. With perfect tenderness, he humbled himself and made a beautiful gesture of his service to her.”
I won’t lie, I just teared up. While I might not necessarily want this at part of my ceremony, this is the type of relationship I want to have with my future husband -united by both love and faith.